The Edge is So Close Now

I'm trying to be strong, have faith, and hold on. I really am. Ah shit but it's so hard. I can't be normal any more. For the past two weeks I've tried. I really don't know what to do or say anymore. I'm lost and I don't know how to find my war. I'm broken and feel as if I can never be fixed. What more will it take for this to be over with? I refuse to take my own life and be a coward, at least right now. I don't want to have to act anymore. Ha, I don't want to exsist anymore. I'm walking along a cliff now and all it's going to take is one more stumble or shove to send me over that edge.