Life Goes On

I'm mad at myself. As much as I was hurting this morning, I couldn't stay mad at him. I listened to sad songs over and over, trying to tell myself that I did nothing wrong, and my anger was completely justified, but when it came down to it I couldn't not be around him. His voice, his touch, his smile, his eyes... everything I love about him... and I feel as if I'm sending him a signal that it's alright for him to hurt me, because I'm too selfish to stay away from him even if it's for my own good. He has a lot more power over me than I think he knows.