Unfair

My dad got home yesterday, let out our puppy (Bella) and then left. Why? I have no idea.

Then she went missing. Go figure.

Last night she was hit by a car and taken to the vet.

Now she's in the emergency room awaiting surgery.

Surgery that my parents refuse to pay for.

So... we lose her...

Emotionless

"I'm trying to get you to think without being emotional about it."

That's what my father just said to me. First he forces religion on me. Now he's trying to make me act how he wants me to act. I can't stand it.

Don't Bother

GAH. Sorry, I just realized it was time for yet another whiny blog about how much I hate my dad. I haven't written one in a long time.

Yeah. Damnit. Now that I'm actually here writing one (or I guess typing, rather) I don't know what all to say. I'm just frustrated. And I broke my crying streak.

I can't stand him! How can someone be so completely hypocritical? It doesn't even make sense! He tells me one thing and I try to stick to it, but then if he's in a bad mood he changes the standards and I'm the one who gets in trouble for trying to adapt to his bullshit. And he's a bloody liar! He made my mom wait at church for an extra 2 hours this morning (she's still there) because he said he wanted to come home and do some paperwork. Yeah, fuck that. He's sleeping.

Oh, and I'm afraid of driving with him. He's fucking insane. He was driving like a drunk this morning, didn't use turn signals, went through stop signs, drove down the middle of the road and crap. It's not like I can say anything to him about it though. If I politely remind him that he just blew past a stop sign, I get my head bitten off because I'm "being disrespectful".

AND he's incredibly selfish. I hate him! SDLFKSJDLFKJ. HATE.

Sorry. I know that was stupid and pointless but I'm just pissed. I hate being pissed.

愛

How did it happen that their lips came together? How does it happen that birds sing, that snow melts, that the rose unfolds, that the dawn whitens behind the stark shapes of trees on the quivering summit of the hill? A kiss, and all was said. ~Victor Hugo

Meh. I liked that quite a bit and figured I'd put it down somewhere.

Love Day

Here comes a late post about Valentine's Day [hahaha]:

WOW.

Yeah, that's pretty much all I have to say about that. Jon came over and I made him dinner. It was actually... amazing. We had candles and Frank Sinatra playing and almost the house to ourselves. Then we were going to star gaze in the hammock outside, but it was cloudy. And freezing. We decided inside would be more comfortable... ;)

Annnnnnnd then he went home a little after 10:00 I think. Haha.

I don't think I have EVER had a better Valentine's Day.

"Trip over love, you can get up. Fall in love and you fall forever."


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